This is why I love Elena Brower so fiercely. This particular meditation helped me when I was working so hard on self-love as a launching pad to my sobriety — and it felt like nobody could understand me (and much less put it in words). I had drowned my ability to feel for so long, that to hear her say what my soul was screaming, and better yet — to get some hope on what was on the other side — was the best gift of all.
I am still touched by her every word, now that I have stopped “shredding my integrity” daily through drinking. Her words have carried me from darkness to light. First, with this meditation, which I mumbled through tears for nights on end as I fought to get out of my 700 days of relapse. And then, the spiritual cycle connected when I met her at She Recovers NYC this spring, and I had a chance to hug her and thank her for being my voice when I could not find mine.
Today, and I am grateful to have her as friend, mentor and spiritual teacher as I grow into my long-lost Self. Through my recovery, I can connect to “les messages de l’univers” she mentions, which felt impossible to reach for so long. I am, indeed, fully invested in my soul’s evolution and my personal revolution…becoming the woman I was meant to be, one day at a time. Leaping, blooming, pausing, being still and setting fear to the side. Daily.
I am incredibly grateful to realize that the Universe put Elena on my path. With tinker-dust and unicorn bow and all that stuff.
Enjoy this gift. May it reach the corners of your soul the way it does for me.
Pamela is a Certified Professional Recovery Coach & Educator. She has been in a recovery journey since 2009, and is a passionate about breaking the stigma surrounding addiction. Follow her unfiltered adventures on IG @sober_mami and Twitter @LaSoberMami. Pass on this page to any who may struggle with addiction, please.