Today I beat my drinking demon to a pulp. I fought my illness good and hard on the wrestling mat. It was a terrifying match. I finished bloody, messy and exhausted...but I won. Against all odds, I won. What this means is that in the middle of an otherwise ordinary workday, smack in the middle of solid months … Continue reading The Deep Craving Episode (or how I beat my Drinking Demon, instead of relapsing again)
For anyone who struggled with a relapse recently. It’s all good, it’s just a part of the journey. All my love, SM.
Today I received an email from a beautiful girl in the Sober Tribe, who relapsed this weekend and just came out of a 3-day bender. She asked me what I recommended to get back on track with recovery, as she know that relapse was “my jam” for a long 2 years.
Below, my answer:
I am sorry you went through that. It sucks. But it happens, and God knows I am familiar with how that goes. Relapses are a blow to the heart, to the body, and to the very essence of who we are. SO. The here are my suggestions:
- Take time to have time with yourself. Sit with you, the real you. The one who wants to get better. And forgive yourself. The hardest thing for me was to do that, through my relapsing. I found that the last times (the ones that allowed for sobriety…
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Current reality: Life is a little shitty and somehow, I survive + my sobriety grows muscle. *I am getting divorced. - This week I am in the very last leg of my divorce. My second divorce, mind you. And while every ounce of my brain tells me that this is a VERY good thing - my … Continue reading This is why I need my Program
I will now have the joy of re-posting some of the recovery blogs of amazing women I met. What a joy to share pieces of light coming from these strong, badass recovery warriors. My beautiful new friend Nancy Carr, who TODAY celebrates 13 years of being sober, wrote something magnificent about our She Recovers NYC … Continue reading Recovery Rockstars
I was a witness to greatness last Friday night in NYC. Greatness, all rolled-up in a 5-foot uber-petite frame. Greatness in high heels, sassy blond hair and black leather pants. Glennon Doyle-Melton is greatness. And badassness. And raw-truthness (yes, I make up words, live with it). Glennon looks like a suburban mom (and frankly has a hotness … Continue reading Addiction = Running from pain (and love)
The She Recovers NYC weekend came and went like a loud storm and a soft whisper. It danced through me, sometimes slamming messages of "elevated consciousness" that were loud and boisterous; and sometimes delivering whispered jewels of truth which felt were made just for me. I am struggling with what to say; I am overwhelmed in a way … Continue reading SHE RECOVERS, New York 2017
About 3 months ago, while wrapping up my 6.00 a.m. daily meditation, I posted something to my SoberMami Instagram feed. A second later, my eyes fell on an photo of my 4 favorite authors (and she-heroes) - all of them would be speaking at an event in NYC named SHE RECOVERS. Gabby Bernstein, Glennon Doyle … Continue reading “She Recovers”, NYC.
I don't have a lot of time for a wordy blog today. Just want to write a few lines of gratitude. I find myself so busy this Easter that I barely have time to sit in front of my computer. My sober Easter included a beautiful morning at Church, errands, shopping and a fabulous seafood … Continue reading Rocking my Sober Easter
“I relapsed, had a slip and drank for days. I hate myself right now. I know I have an illness but I can not go on living with this person I have become. I have no respect for myself. I am full of self-loathing. I want to be able to look in the mirror and … Continue reading The Cycle of Shame in Addiction
Note: This is a transcript from the book Broken Open - How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow, by Elizabeth Lesser. I normally write my heart/brain out in these posts, but this is too good not to share directly from the pages if this fabulous read. "Learn the alchemy true human beings know. The moment … Continue reading The Open Secret of our Addiction