Today I beat my drinking demon to a pulp. I fought my illness good and hard on the wrestling mat. It was a terrifying match. I finished bloody, messy and exhausted...but I won. Against all odds, I won. What this means is that in the middle of an otherwise ordinary workday, smack in the middle of solid months … Continue reading The Deep Craving Episode (or how I beat my Drinking Demon, instead of relapsing again)
Current reality: Life is a little shitty and somehow, I survive + my sobriety grows muscle. *I am getting divorced. - This week I am in the very last leg of my divorce. My second divorce, mind you. And while every ounce of my brain tells me that this is a VERY good thing - my … Continue reading This is why I need my Program
I was a witness to greatness last Friday night in NYC. Greatness, all rolled-up in a 5-foot uber-petite frame. Greatness in high heels, sassy blond hair and black leather pants. Glennon Doyle-Melton is greatness. And badassness. And raw-truthness (yes, I make up words, live with it). Glennon looks like a suburban mom (and frankly has a hotness … Continue reading Addiction = Running from pain (and love)
The She Recovers NYC weekend came and went like a loud storm and a soft whisper. It danced through me, sometimes slamming messages of "elevated consciousness" that were loud and boisterous; and sometimes delivering whispered jewels of truth which felt were made just for me. I am struggling with what to say; I am overwhelmed in a way … Continue reading SHE RECOVERS, New York 2017
“I relapsed, had a slip and drank for days. I hate myself right now. I know I have an illness but I can not go on living with this person I have become. I have no respect for myself. I am full of self-loathing. I want to be able to look in the mirror and … Continue reading The Cycle of Shame in Addiction
Note: This is a transcript from the book Broken Open - How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow, by Elizabeth Lesser. I normally write my heart/brain out in these posts, but this is too good not to share directly from the pages if this fabulous read. "Learn the alchemy true human beings know. The moment … Continue reading The Open Secret of our Addiction
There is a lovely woman who was meant to be on my recovery path. One of the many magical things that the Universe has thrown my way recently. Her name is Sasha Tozzi and she is a Unicorn - part Life Coach, part Recovery Coach, part Soul Explorer (www.sashaptozzi.com). I am about to get to know her … Continue reading Proudly recovering OUT LOUD.