“I relapsed, had a slip and drank for days. I hate myself right now. I know I have an illness but I can not go on living with this person I have become. I have no respect for myself. I am full of self-loathing. I want to be able to look in the mirror and … Continue reading The Cycle of Shame in Addiction
Note: This is a transcript from the book Broken Open - How Difficult Times Can Help Us Grow, by Elizabeth Lesser. I normally write my heart/brain out in these posts, but this is too good not to share directly from the pages if this fabulous read. "Learn the alchemy true human beings know. The moment … Continue reading The Open Secret of our Addiction
There is a lovely woman who was meant to be on my recovery path. One of the many magical things that the Universe has thrown my way recently. Her name is Sasha Tozzi and she is a Unicorn - part Life Coach, part Recovery Coach, part Soul Explorer (www.sashaptozzi.com). I am about to get to know her … Continue reading Proudly recovering OUT LOUD.
How do we turn frustration into gratitude? How do we grow spiritually? How do we make the best of a bad situation? How do we learn to live life on life's terms? I grew up with a father who loved to "show the world" to his children. Travel and new experiences were a part of … Continue reading Living Life on Life’s Terms (or how to stop arguing with reality)
I have a weird thing with airports and hot, famous men. Last year, when I was still in my drinking relapse, I traveled to New York and was delayed at La Guardia. To my delight, there was a bar by the gate. More to my delight, one of the Baldwin brothers was there. The cute … Continue reading Dave Matthews crashed into my Program
Today I received an email from a beautiful girl in the Sober Tribe, who relapsed this weekend and just came out of a 3-day bender. She asked me what I recommended to get back on track with recovery, as she know that relapse was "my jam" for a long 2 years. Below, my answer: Hey … Continue reading Relapsing: Emergency Toolkit
Inspired by the book "A Place Called Self" The dictionary defines recovery as a reclaiming or "return" of something lost. According to this definition, a person recovering from addiction is reclaiming the health, sanity and well-being that may have existed before he or she became addicted. But that is not quite right. Recovery is more … Continue reading Redefining Recovery
I just received my first email from a fellow woman in recovery via my blog. We met on Instagram and she reached out to me after reading some of my posts. OMG! YEAH!! (insert jumping girl here!). I am so so so thrilled. For 80+ years, the "secret" of recovery has stayed in the rooms … Continue reading ONLINE SPONSORING? HELL,YEAH!!!
I had a super interesting experience last night. As part of my recovery, I chair an AA meeting on Wednesday nights. It's a great experience because I get to be of service to others, but it's also a humbling experience, because I realize how immense and beautiful the process of recovery is. It shows me … Continue reading Is sobriety about not drinking?
Breaking the f**king stigma of Alcoholism, once and for all. There is something terrifying about the words alcoholic, alcoholism, or even in recovery. Not for me, for others around me. Every time I say "I am an alcoholic", or a "I am a recovered alcoholic", or even "I am sober", there is a beat of silence … Continue reading Stepping out of Anonymity.
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