The Ritual of Recovery

This is why I love Elena Brower so fiercely. This particular meditation helped me when I was working so hard on self-love as a launching pad to my sobriety -- and it felt like nobody could understand me (and much less put it in words). I had drowned my ability to feel for so long, … Continue reading The Ritual of Recovery

Cooked Out ::

Today is a bittersweet day. It is Father's Day. And while I am so very grateful to have a living father, he is in a different country, and I can't do much other than make a phone-call.  I thank him for all he did right, and I honor him for all he did wrong. It's … Continue reading Cooked Out ::

The Deep Craving Episode (or how I beat my Drinking Demon, instead of relapsing again)

Today I beat my drinking demon to a pulp. I fought my illness good and hard on the wrestling mat. It was a terrifying match. I finished bloody, messy and exhausted...but I won. Against all odds, I won. What this means is that in the middle of an otherwise ordinary workday, smack in the middle of solid months … Continue reading The Deep Craving Episode (or how I beat my Drinking Demon, instead of relapsing again)